Preferences

People prefer poultry to sea food.
The reason is that they would very easily turn chicken and pretend they do not like shellfish.

The Stupid Beckon

There is no dearth of the stupid -
The hollow voices and the hollow thoughts.
I can hear the noise everyday
The inconsequential is painful - the search for meaning shall be finite one day.
The reason to survive is challenged each day by the morons who pass me by.
I hold myself in high stead and I believe that things are possible my love.
It was a fight that was fought just today - and I got hurt.
May be the wound shall heal in 2-4 months
Or may be I will be scarred for life.
Either way, there is a party which has to be enjoyed.
The merry shall dance - and the moaners shall weep.
I shall stay in the middle
Because I see myself falling down everyday, and I see my joints rust.
It is slow and painful and every time that you pass me by, you give me a bit of you.
When you do that I give you a bit of me.
Thus, the energy wanes
The internal is lost to the external and the dull become the dull.
The brightness fades and the light dims.
You make me cry
I am stupid.
I am a loser
I am obsolete.
I love you.

Uproar

It is twilight and the crowds amass.
They scream for a light to show its body.
The light says: "NO! You do not deserve me!"
They cry and they moan. They hug each other.
The light stands before them - naked - for all.
It blinds the ignorant and fuels the engines.
They then scream together: "Long live the flame! Long live the shine!"
"I am the guide; I am the way, I am the one; it is me you shall obey!"

A voice rings out from amidst the dead.
The man is wearing but only a rag.
"I need no one. I am all pure. I need only my love to stand by my side. I need no one. I have it all.
The end is at hand. Drown in you blood you fools! Die right now!"
The love of his life stands beside him - radiant with pride.

A Beach Dance by Night

I saw this guy on the beach; he looked as though he had come for a jog.
He had his arms wide open and he was an airplane.
He was walking / jogging in a zig zag way.
First a walk; then a turn by about 90 degrees and then a jog.
After a while he would get tired and would stop.
He seemed eccentric, may be even insane.
I always kept a fair distance.
Luckily it was night and he could not see me.
What was hilarious was the fact that he kept disturbing couples - unintentionally.
Then he would jump on the spot; not as one does while skipping rope but rather, as a kid.
He would occasionally twirl on the spot, but run at the same time.
As if he was in a trance.
After a while a couple of girls passed him and they started laughing at him.
I believe he said: " Fokkhin' Fokhh Fokkhhh"
He seemed oblivious to his surroundings - admirable indeed.
Then I had to stop, because all of a sudden he stopped and was staring at the sea.
Hands in pocket.
Lazy types - but confident to the brim.
He jumped again and again, and laughed
He said: "Fokkhin' Fokkkhh Yewww"
He turned sharply and stared at himself in the eye and said:
"This is you!"

Just another day inside the Matrix

Why don't you just fall off the cliff that rises 2 feet below the sea shore?
Why not just close all your eyes and stare at a beautiful cockroach?
Why do you need to walk back home after a long tiring day? -
Go home and fight with your spouse -
Worry about the 50 rupee note that you cannot find -
Worry about your child's future -
Worry about your retirement plan -
Vomit everyday that you go to office -
Curse every fucking soul on the street -
Be a fan of the masses -
Be a speculator and an astrologer -
Why do you need to sleep - if all you do is wake up ?
Why do you eat when all you do is take it out ?
Why do you live when all you will attain is death ?
Because death has a lot of friends.
They all walk together.
They appear as random movements to the ignorant eye.
But they all travel blindly - in opposite directions - towards the same eventuality.
Iconoclasts are frowned upon.
Hedonists are absent and/or stoned.
I saw a fish the other day that jumped up from the sea and gobbled me down.
The fish did not smell that good.
But the couple that was cuddling and kissing on 1 side juxtaposed with another quarreling smelt much worse.
The rambling and the nuisance -
The frowning and the grumbling -
The crying and the pain -
All narrowed down to a memento
All came upon a small little fight club
Unanimous.
Blunt.
Red.
Burnt.

Terrorism has a new meaning.

Destroying buses, taxis or private property, harming another individual physically or damaging people's confidence amount to terrorism.
Acts of Terrorism are 'condemned', unless initiated on the basis of political activism.
Hats off to MNS, VHP, Shiv Sena & the like, for carrying off such brazen, although hilarious, acts.

The confusion awaits the reader.

Mediocre makes me frown.
Goli makes me laugh.
Merry-go-rounds make me throw up with disgust.
Irrelevance makes my eyes bulge out.
Praise is a wall
Anger is not warranted.
Frustration commands respect.
Aloof I kiss.
Zipped I adore.
Action I bow to.
Mediocre makes me angry (Fooling myself eh?).
Laze laze and laze - I respect such.
Tire tire and kill - I respect such.
The blunt at the bottom of a pencil without graphite is the fountainhead.
The sharp corners turn evenly smooth.
The roar of an engine on a silent night through a secluded road is exotic.
The meet of 2 unknowns is erotic.
The scream through a fall is overshadowed by the thud.
The waves warm a lifeless soul.
The valley is a cradle.
The ice shelves beckon.
The ice shelves beckon.
The off white whispers a word of love.
The aurora australis enchants.
The bulging eyes scare the mediocre.
The 2 cans atop a snow capped creation belong together.
There they rest.

Standard Deviation

The question asked is : "What if?"

Kill it.

Cry in front of the person you want to.

Flap your hands in public and be a kid.

Just say "I like you" - if you feel like.

Just say "May be, may be not, may be fuck you" - and go on your path.

Do not sit back if you want to be restless.

If you prefer sanyaas to monotony and luxury - go for it.

If you prefer stupidity to sanyaas - start crying.

The moment your vision is skewed; the possibility of a normal life is remote.

You cannot understand how some people are just so stupid.

And how topics of absolute irrelavance are discussed.

How the external loci affects the internal.

The Skew will grow.

And one fine day you accept that your existence is a nightmare.

Death just might be better.

May be the skew qualifies as a reason for euthanasia.

If you like the Bentley - see nothing else.

If you like your partner - don't fool around and confuse yourself with infidelity.

If you like your house - don't disturb your home.

If you like someone - blurt.

Wanna shout? Scream till your ears hurt.

Don't regret a : " What if? "

If you do - your existence has been a waste.

Help!

It is a very good thing that smoking has been banned in public places and indoors.

These humans should not be allowed freedom in a democracy to choose the way they enjoy life.

"Cough Cough"

There are talks of liquor being banned - good thing! 

Who needs it?

Mr. Ramadoss shall be our mesiah and tell us how to control our vices.

Who are we to decide our fate - we clearly do not know right from wrong.

Mr. Ramadoss is our mummy!!!

I believe cars should be banned - - do you know how much they pollute?

They make me cough everytime I go out on the roads.

Evil Cars!!!

Ban them.

Night clubs should also be banned.

Naughty things happen at night - like sex!! Hawww!!

Cheee cheee. . . . Indians should not be allowed to have sex outside a marriage.

Coffee is bad for teeth - - - I have banned that from my daily use.

If I was Mr. Ramadoss I would have banned it for everyone!!

Oil, ghee, butter, chocolate makes one fat - that gives rise to other ailments.

Ban them already!!!

Listening to loud music disturbs others and also increases the amount of bacteria in one's ears.

Stupid humans.

The word ' condom' was censored from the movie 'Hello!'

Of course it should have been!!!

We need more humans to occupy all the empty land in India!!

We hardly have people here in India. - only 1.1 billion.

People should be banned from using the loo.

You know how much waste goes into the sea.

And then we go n do chapp chapp in the sea

Such a sad state of affairs I say.

Bachaaoooo

Bachaaaoooo!!!!

Praise

Mr. Raj wants names of establishments in Marathi - hahahahaha

Momooota ji wants no nano - therefore Tata said aavjo n went to gujju dhandho land

Stupid people do not want SEZ - I wonder why - ( they have NOT been influenced by local gundaas or politicians. NO WAY )

So called 'investors' in the market blame promoters, regulators, traders, brokerages - but not their own stupid selves for wanting to use the stock exchange as a means to gamble.

Mr. Raj also wants certain hardworking immigrants to leave so that lazy people can replace them.

How smart!!! - -  why did I not think of that!!!

And there, in some rural area - 2 bafoons wear some orange things on their heads and pretend to shoot arrows.

No organised retail because we do not want an efficient supply chain; we do not want maximum benefit going to farmers, we do not want cheaper prices, we do not want better quality, we do not want ancillary sectors like logistics, warehousing, transport and service industries to flourish.

We do not want more jobs, better paying jobs, technological progress, ancillary establishments, better standards of living - so let's postpone the Nano project and remove those idiots.

Who do they think they are? As if we will let them bring progress to our impoverished society.

I said hello to a Bentley that belonged to the govt. of Karnataka just a year ago.

Alas - That car must have become too old for the fat slobs inside.

I also said hello to palacial bungalows that belong to politicians (believe me; they are really small!!! - I wonder how they survive!!!!!!)

O and let us not forget to litter anywhere we go.

This is my country and it is my birth right to dirty it as I please.

O please let me bribe the traffic guy - I am running late

O please let me spit out of my window (not my fault; it is the damn gutka's fault.)

But let me feel proud when I see the national flag.

Let me rejoice on hearing the national anthem before I see a movie.

Let me abuse the - smart - politicians who cannot control inflation and cannot support the stock market.

Allow me to sleep and dream of a better society.

Muahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Latent Talent

No kutte - this is not a word jumble - - yucky yucky yuck!!

This refers to the fact that those who are dead are not dead.

They are alive and kicking and rotting inside the flesh and the exterior

Blah - dulllllllllllllll

Anyways. 

Kids are taught to memorise!!! and learn!!!! and vomit!!

This is right!!!

That is wrong!!!

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo - - - - kiddoo!!! you are not smart enough

You are dumb.

Dum Dum (not digga digga)

In the process the P.E. keeps accumalating to give a rich tasty dividend in the end.

Well; that is the purpose of the P.E.

But even that - is not allowed to metatmorphose into K.E. 

Dum Dum world!! - shame on you!

Imagine the number of R.G.Rs waiting!!

All for one and one for all!!!

Up yourssssssssssss!!!!!!!

(I have to learn to control my temper eh?)

Then there are a select few who realise their latent talent and start exploding and exploring and exciting and searching and eating and pooping.

And the poop spreads its tentacles and eats others' heads.

O the cannibalism that follows.

Can you even imagine the horror!!!

Can you imagine!!!

I guess not - - because you are too stupid to understand what I have written.

If you are not stupid - - don't waste your time reading such rubbish

Go and gobble!!!

You fat, aggressive, hyperactive, pragmatic, eccentric bugger!!

Gobble fast and digest thoroughly

Please dont forget to poop!

The poop and the stench of the poop is creative.

Forgive me for I have sinned.

I have dared to be stuuuuupid.

Muhahahahhahahaha!

North Korea

I was reading the Economist the other day. There was an article on North Korea.

Supposedly there was a famine between 1995 - 98 - and approx. 1million people died.

Any number above 4 - is just a number. If it is 3 or less - - then people are astonished.

"Did you know x, y & z died this way?"

"OMG! How awful !!! :-( "

Well it is pretty hilarious - this behaviour by humans.

Anyways; my point is - why do people in North Korea even have the will to live?

Famine + rape + torture + hunger + poverty + execution + no option + full stop

So what do they really look forward to?

My hunch: 

Death is a supposed evil - and suicide is being the devil

"You are not the rightful owner of your life - so you are not a decision maker?"

Most probably I am wrong.

Then again; why do most humans decide to live?

If there is nothing concrete to look forward to.

Poor; irritated; frustrated; physically challeneged; intellectually incapable; family pressures; societal pressures.

Ask yourself : "What do I want to attain from this life?"

Is it the road that matters? - will the road be enjoyable or adventurous - such that I would look forward to it?

Is the destination worth the bitchy road?

There are a lot of people who live for a reason - they wont say it - and I understand that it makes sense.

But most people do not even think about why they are alive.

Or why they are going through what they are going

Or why they are travelling the road.

The "WHY" is missing.

Humans are very amusing creatures.

I laugh everyday just thinking of them.

Thanks!!!

A walk on the beach

I saw all the lonely people walking with people who they might have known.

I saw couples; cuddling; kissing& holding hands

I saw a few stars.

I was jogging and I felt thirsty.

A prostitute approaced me: "Aye Hero! Mazaa karna hai kya?"

I said: "Sorry Yaar"

And walked on; silent, lost and tired.

After a while, I closed my eyes, faced the ocean and heard the waves.

It sounds dramatic, but I could actually hear the waves and not much else.

I died that night.

It was very silent and painful.

It was more like a thud.

All of a sudden all was hollow.

There was nobody around me.

There was nothing concrete to be done.

I was not tired anymore.

I was not hungry; nor did I have a craving for a certain taste.

I sat; and I felt like crying.

All of a sudden I had nothing.

I was drifting in the air and could see my lifeless body before my eyes.

My eyes were bloody and wide open.

As if in shock.

I died that night & I saw myself.

It was actually a thud.

I know I am reiterating but there is no other way to express it.

The ground was no longer there.

Nor was there a sky.

Nor was there a vision.

Nor was there any love.

No family either.

No friends.

No sleep, no food, no recreation.

It felt meaningless.

I woke up from death the next morning.
And felt a rush of energy - the kind that is not evident physically.
That is when I realised.
Yesterday was Death.
Yesterday was Anand.

You are disgusting

I have always had a problem with conformance and destiny. It angers me. Stubbornness and goliness infuriates me. This society and all those who create it are a bunch of brainless bulbs; with only a few invisible - or some visible - gods. But this society will never allow me to leave it completely. I feel I am about to fall over the edge. And I am already falling. If I am not me - I am you, and you are disgusting.

The Aviator

He spoke of planes flying from New York to New Foundland to Ireland to Paris to Moscow to Japan to Los Angeles to New York. Very Questionable. Has much changed?

The Pain

Today I paid a person in order to save myself from the bureaucracy; also to save myself from the frustration and at the least' 4 hours of wasted time. So, this is the system. And I have finally succumbed to it. Is this real? I have been against this for a very long time and it still holds true. I still hate it. The thought of it makes me boil inside. Does the end justify the means? I was selfish. I aim to see this country free of the ridiculous. It is true - that when I die it is not going to matter; but it is just a drive to do something worthwhile with this human mind and body. I believe that I am capable of doing better than most. I see the potholes, the bureaucracy, the capitalism, the bribery, wasted time of millions of Indians, anger, fraud, frustration and disappointment manifest itself into this sorry excuse for a well oiled aspirational nation. Enforcement of law is more responsible than the law itself. A successful society rests on moral (please understand this word) responsibility. Contrary to all opinion; this responsibility needs to be a web, originating from a multitude of sources, deriving its strength based on everything around it. It is not a bottom up or a top down approach. Short term profits and short term losses influence most decisions - just like cannibals. It is difficult to get illiterate fools to come together for the common good. An educated society is successful. Although - education does not mean schooling. Education is much deeper. It is individual thoughts backed by logic. It is moral teachings by elders backed by logic. Logic is the sole reason why we are human. I paid a person today to save myself and ruin society. And exercise the saved time. And save myself from frustration.

All the lonely people

I returned 2 nights ago from Paris.
I love that city - waiting till I can go there again.
Made me sad as soon as I reached Bombay - because this city is so horribly managed.
People are sad; irritated; frustrated; etc.
I don't want to go on about this as it is endless.
I was alone in that city for 2 days.
And I mean - absolutely alone.
Traveled alone; ate alone; was stared at for being brown; smiled & laughed alone.
Very charming and romantic city.
Fell in love with La Defense, the food; the Metro; the roads.

I am finally embarking on a very different path which is causing nausea.
I believe I will make it.
I pressurize myself too much.
Take it easy Tir.
Lol.

Spoon Story

"This boy was born with a silver spoon in his mouth!"
Hell; you may even be born with a golden spoon in your mouth!
The fact that matters is - most of us are born with a spoon in our hands.
Food is not far away
Neither is your mouth.

Question for the humble readers,

Read the following questions;
You are allowed to cry; moan; shout; laugh; go crazy or just smile - after reading the questions.

1. Do you have any idea why you did what you have done throughout your life?
2. Do you have any idea why you did what you did today?
3. Do you have any idea why you are going to do what you plan to do henceforth?

You are welcome.

Thirsty

It is undying.
Ever-growing.
It drives me insane at times.
The first step is yet to be taken.
But I am already riding along in my craft.
I can smell the breeze.
And I can see the lights.
They are dim and pretty.
Not blinding.
May my craft never run out of fuel.
May I always turn around the corners.
May I fall down and scratch myself.
Have burns.
Cry in pain.
Gut twisting horrifying pain.
May I need a helping hand.
But I will step out of my craft.
And walk on my 2 feet.
And smile a naughty smile.
Full of pride.
And build thousands more.
All traveling together - parallel to each other.
Imagine the breadth.
It shall conquer all.
It will be overwhelming.

The valley shall be visible.
The only way will be down below into the canyon.
And my craft will fall into it.
But lo!
It now has wings.
Thousands of these crafts fly together.
Can you imagine that wonderful sky where brightness is mistaken for the sun?
Can you imagine how it will be?

I can.
I am restless.
But calm is my face.
Throbbing is my heart.
There is a lot to engulf.
A lot to digest.
And a lot to wash down with experience.

I can smell that breeze.

Conundrum

These humans quarrel over a bunch of people kicking a ball within a certain time limit siding one group or the other
These humans look at the same person with makeup on; and with a bloody face - differently.
These humans are unconscious during sleep.
They work sometimes; unhappily or, unknowingly.
They strive for something; but are in fact, aimless.
And as good as birds trying to fly into the sea against the wind.
These humans always try and look different.
They wear things they don't need - to cover their body.
They create 'relations'; 'reasons'; 'emotions'.
They laugh on the most crazy things.
They complain and cry over worthless things.
They strive for a useless future - where they eventually die and therefore render life, useless.
But they still coexist.
They are still not extinct.
I wonder why.

Sorrow

We believe that we shall remain forever

And we also hope that we see each other from a short distance
And almost as if we cannot separate our identities
We hope for utopia
We paint our pictures together
But we smile because we know that it will all melt away
The present is not meant to be relished
Only the future will provide us ecstasy
I assure you that I will not share you with any other entity
You will be pure
You will be a naked beauty shielded in an exterior
An exterior, visible to outsiders
There will come a time;
When we see the stars in the night sky
Brighter than we ever imagined
Believe me my love - that is the end
It will be a majestic end
An emotional end
A proud end
And an enigmatic beginning
Hope to see you then - as radiant as you are now
As proud as you are now
I hope to see you till my last breath

Poetry

Just walk on by and care for nothing
Be a selfish human and taste the air
Walk a little slowly or you might make a fall
Walk a little faster or you might fall down
Defend yourself against the assailant and battle away with time portals
Jump, turn, skip, and then hold your ground
Kick yourself hard and cry out in anger
May be that's when you find your true love
That's when you realise who's waiting for you
That's when you realise you had a hand around your shoulder hailing you ahead
You had four hands all along, my love
You had two lives all along darling . . .

Saw a little picture

Yellow and white lights inside massive elegant buildings
30th Floor - and a man looks out
He is done for the day
It was tiresome
For some reason - he keeps staring at those lights
The last rays of the sun can be seen on the horizon
He rests himself on his chair while standing
He leans on the back rest of his chair while standing
He remembers - he has not blinked for a while now
He shuts his eyes
Smiles
He can still see the lights
He opens his eyes
Looks down
Smiles
Looks up
Unfocusses his eyes
Takes his suit and decides to drive home
Muscles are tired - so is his head
But he sticks to his decision
He drives home - longs to see his front porch - with beautiful yellow lights
Longs to ring the bell - and see his wife
Longs to sleep peacefully

He reaches home
Sees the dim yellow lights
His wife opens the door
He lets himself in
Sits for dinner with her
Prepares for bed
And goes off to sleep

He remembers the most beautiful thing
He has to undergo the process of dying again tomorrow
He longs for it.
He falls asleep

Same Ol'

Night clubs and discos are akin to dance bars
We need to spend Rs. x Cr on making a beautiful water fountain - while people dont have access to drinking water - and not even 24hr regular use water supply
We have spent Rs x Crs on importing and maintaining 'state of the art' road cleaning vehicles - but we have not really made any good roads to maintain.
Highly amusing. - I believe that even when I am 40 I am gonna write things like this
I take my words back.

India shall never be the next USA - Indian companies will be amazing - India will never be.

Difference

I am posting this from HK - Beautiful place. People are peaceful, smiling, they look the same ;)

And of course they have their individual sorrows inside.

My point being, that my experience here shall be held for a lifetime - I was sitting at a table; a girl was eating - after she was done - she took some tissues and wiped the table clean.

That is the difference. The difference that will always portray what creates success.

I shall stand up for myself. I will do this differently. I do this - So I create a difference.

My bus met with an accident yesterday - no fighting; no quarelling; they just called the police - and our police detained our driver.

Were people in the bus panicky? No.

You see the lights - the fashion brands - their lifestyle. It is a goal for al countries. You want to be so financially independent that people beg to come - people look forward to come - people smile to work - people smile at work - people eat well. They cry of course - but you can see the calm on thier faces. It is a dream. But a developing country; is aspirational - they look forward to something.

They look forward to tomorrow.

Frustration

It feels as if they are doing us a favour;
Roads dug up : PLEASE BEAR WITH US; WE ARE DOING THIS FOR A BETTER FUTURE.
While they are at it; we have already lost out on the present which has passed us by for the last may be 10 years...
Yes, things are betterl but better is not good enough.
We deserve much more.
At the same time; we deserve much less.


Buildings with a glass facade towering over mud, littered pavements, dug up roads and slums.
We refuse to change.
So do they.
Munnabhai came and went.
The part of the table underneath is still as useful.
In fact, the part above the tabel is being used a whole lot more freely now - - SEE HOW TRANSPARENT WE ARE !!!



You want an advance tax refund.
YOU have to pay to get YOUR money back.
Will they always wield this power?
Yes.
Congress or BJP or some other blah blah;
We don't choose the best;
We choose the least worse.

Free TVs;
Farmer subsidies.
Export incentives.
Rice at Rs. 2 a kilo.

They give to people who don't deserve.
They take from people who work hard.
That is socialism!? :|
That is Ayn Rand's world
The world she hates.
The same world that I hate.
No one has the courage to stand up and fight.
Or come together for the common long term good.
Even I am a coward.

India and Indians will succeed despite the government.
We will be the next USA.
DESPITE THE GOVERNMENT

Rain

I always smile nicely with the first rains. I smile before I start complaining of the humidity, sickness, puddles, potholes, traffic. I remember the time when we left from Geetanjali's house in Kalina at around 1230am. We had to switch 2 autos; finally had to walk a short distance to my place. I cant believe how useless I was. All the time to stop and stare, and care about nothing whatsoever. May be that is why I love being my mad self.
Laughing till I almost burst :) ; waving my arms in the middle of the street.
Visualising my dreams and painting an occasional picture.
And finally writing this rubbish.

Bring it on.

There is a small gap between the curtain and the wall which allows me to see a little light from outside.

I sometimes stare at the tv for quite a while; and only later do I realise that I have absolutely no idea as to what I am staring at.
We always search for a little bit of peace in our lives, not knowing how easily we regularly attain it.
These short moments provide the perfect soil for nurturing creativity, intellect and bliss.
We smile effortlessly and we always feel that we don't smile enough .
Eyes wide shut. A deep breath. A sigh. A smile. No time to stop and stare.
Thrust your head into the wind, while in a train and hear your heart beat loud and sharp.
Fill your head with it. Meditate and smile.

The Moment

There is a choice that we have.
Smile now, or plan for a huge smile in the future.
We decide so eagerly that yes!
This is what I want.
And this is where I want to be!
And this is therefore, what I shall do.


Before long, you are a senior citizen who has enjoyed his weekends.
But that is only one seventh of your life.

I believe; this is what is called THE PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS.












You believe that this is it.
But the 'it' is always beyond arms reach.
We keep running behind it.

And then occasionally;
Just like me right now;

We smile.

And everything melts away.
It is so fulfilling and brilliant.

Then somewhere, you realise;
O
I am still 21 years old.
What about the future???

Right back where I started from?
We dont want to be useless and laze around throughout the day.
We dont want to work for something we dont like.
We dont want constraints.
We dont want to wake up in the morning.
We dont want to sleep in either.
We dont want to earn less.
We dont want to spend more.

Humans;
And the society that we have created is the biggest lab experiment that shall ever exist.
It is a gold mine.
It is the matrix.

There shall never be a perfect being.
Or a perfect life.
Perfection will be rejected.
We shall continue to pass time till we cease to exist.
Till our brain ceases to function.
As soon as that happens
We become perfect.
Exactly the same time that we are rejected.
Life;
Liberty;
and the pursuit of Happyness.

I wish you all an ignorant future.
Live.

No man's land

Hospital nearby.
Dead.
Walking through a slum area.
A vibrant area having its blend of struggles, laughter, and naked emotions.

Fresh bread baked at eleven pm.
Barber with grumpy clients.

Silence.
Noise.


Long straight lighted pavement.
A guy walking down the middle.

Gazing in an unassuming way.
Looking at life.
Seeing through two tin sheets at the world beyond.
Turns around to go back to the dead peace.

Selfish

There is a spark within us;
Wishing to ignite.
But very necessarily, the oxygen is missing for most people.

Most of my writing is based on existence v/s creation.
I think I think too much.
And I have said that before.

I want to be alone.
I dont want to be lonely.

I want to be focussed.
I dont want to think.

I want to act.
I want to procrastinate.

I want to learn.
I want to sleep.

I want to Roark.
I want to dream.
I want to fight everyday.
I want to chill everyday.

I want automation.
I want bliss.

I want to remember each moment.
I want to live each day.
I want to forget and move ahead.

I want to die.
As Tir.

Geometry

Sometimes, it really feels that ignorance is complete bliss.
It was an alien concept a year ago;
But this bliss, I believe; is only good in the short run.

After a while, it gets to you.
You don't want to be ignorant.
You want to care, create, risk, build an ego.

It might hit you now,
Or when you are about to die.

Happy people are those who create this ego; and are satisfied.
Or those who are completely ignorant and concentrate on the present.

It is crazy how visionaries are sadder than ignorant people.
How they are always lost, when compared with the ignorant kind.
But;
These weird buggers somehow enjoy the question marks before them.

So;
Although they appear sad.
And they are sad.
They enjoy the pursuit.

John Mayer said it nicely in his song.
Something's missing; And I don't know what it is!

It's a weird circle whose circumference blends into another.

Iron Man

I still cant figure out why I loved Iron Man so much.

Let's see -
An amazing genius
Captured by terrorists
Creates an iron creature powered by something radioactive.
Stops his defense equipment production
And creates something to safeguard people, and destroy the baddies

I believe it was the nasha of working.
The intelligence
The Galt-ness
The drive
The energy
Perspiration
Dream
Ability
Getting lost

Ego
Progress

Rearden Steel

Galt's Gulch


Really reminded me of this

Motive

Stand up and fight.
But don't forget to smile.
Stare away.
But look at nothing.

Flirt.
But only with your 'destiny'.

Push yourself.
Till the pain turns to ecstasy.
Till the new becomes old.
Till nostalgia sets in.

Till you see the world in a glimpse.

Till you can see with your eyes shut.
Till you can live beyond consciousness.


Never Rest.

Explore

Fly away to unconsciousness. . .
Gain complete control.
Find yourself when all is lost.

Create lost thoughts.
Impress - such that the creation becomes ordinary.

Greatness is a perspective.
Silence critics by making them shout out loud.

Egoism is a virtue.
Let flow its complete potential.
Silence.
Patience.
Violence.

It Starts ?

So I started off at office - n 2 months over now. Pretty cool. Life is shaping.
Hopefully I get to fly.
Learning a lot - Is this what I want to learn though?
Have an ever growing interest in Finance - the Bond Mkt. n Interest rates.
Its a whole diff world out there.
Getting really anxious - restless - don't know how to push myself
Do I want to push myself?

Want to focus
The end is visible
But is that picture an illusion?
Are the means a farce?
If the end turns out to be irrelevant will I laugh at myself?

And if the end is achieved will I really be happy?
What if I love the end & also love the means?
Which one will be more important?

I believe you have to decide right now.
You say you want to get off the block fast;
But what if the foundation determines future speed?
What if you spend all your time on the foundation?
Or what if the A.C. is better than the natural cold up there?
Do you really want to ride a Goliath in the future?
Or would you much rather enjoy this stupid yacht?

Fly away baby ! Fly Away !
No chains! No holds barred!

Useless Conversations

Just noticed recently; how useless some conversations are ! lols
Well, actually all talks are completely inconsequential - but let's not go there :P

It is highly amusing when you listen to a bunch of people talking about absolutely nothing.
Reminds me of Seinfeld.
Then again, being a part of some of these useless conversations can really make one happy; or lifted out of boredom.. It is absolutely amazing !

For example : blogging makes you feel that you are doing something worthwhile, or checking your mails, or calling up people to have a chat.
But how amazingly & utterly useless it is.
But it gives you a feeling of being worthwhile. Makes you pass those miserable stupid useless moments.

Just how baseless & stupid is this current blog.
But it makes me feel that : "Yeah ! I am Blogging baby! "

On that note . . . I just realised - I feel like watching some good TV
Most probably I will be surfing channels & then cry that nothing good is coming on TV ya :-(

What is Power ?

Control.

Atlas Bhaiyya bola - Get Lost

From the novel Atlas Shrugged:

"If you saw Atlas, the giant who holds the world on his shoulders, if you saw that he stood, blood running down his chest, his knees buckling, his arms trembling but still trying to hold the world aloft with the last of his strength, and the greater the effort the heavier the world bore down upon his shoulders--what would you tell him to do?"

"I . . . don't know. What . . . could he do? What would you tell him?"

"To shrug."

It eej a tuf

Difficulties baby. U gotta luv life dont u
A lot needs to be accomplished so that you can look back and smile.
Stare away and say - - Mine
Cry a bit and think - - I have put my life to good use
Invention - Ego - Both these terms gel; don't they ?

Its not nice to be blunt about such matters.
But let it be written.
Let the consequences be irrelevant.

When shall the first step be taken off that cliff ?
Waiting to jump towards the sky with my eyes wide open.
Waiting to be prepared for injuries.

8 months

Hello again - my invisible audience
No. I'm not pregnant. Completed 8 months at Edelweiss; and finally quit. Very fruitful months, lots of learning . We had our own team, a nice leader, some responsible ppl. Some dumfuks. Very entertaining and knowledgeable experience.

I finally decided that enough of Cash Futures. Have to progress in life - and again ; i might just read this some yrs into the future and laugh at myself as to how ambitious OR how foolish I was - I dont know how.

It took a while to figure that out. Whether to ask for a department change, or work in a startup, or work with my dad.
Decided on lucky option 3. Tomoro is D-Day. My very first day of fultooo confusion. Dekhte hai how it goes.

Apart from that; reading a bit - trying to ;-)
Hope to bump into u sooner rather than later
aavjo man