The Moment

There is a choice that we have.
Smile now, or plan for a huge smile in the future.
We decide so eagerly that yes!
This is what I want.
And this is where I want to be!
And this is therefore, what I shall do.


Before long, you are a senior citizen who has enjoyed his weekends.
But that is only one seventh of your life.

I believe; this is what is called THE PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS.












You believe that this is it.
But the 'it' is always beyond arms reach.
We keep running behind it.

And then occasionally;
Just like me right now;

We smile.

And everything melts away.
It is so fulfilling and brilliant.

Then somewhere, you realise;
O
I am still 21 years old.
What about the future???

Right back where I started from?
We dont want to be useless and laze around throughout the day.
We dont want to work for something we dont like.
We dont want constraints.
We dont want to wake up in the morning.
We dont want to sleep in either.
We dont want to earn less.
We dont want to spend more.

Humans;
And the society that we have created is the biggest lab experiment that shall ever exist.
It is a gold mine.
It is the matrix.

There shall never be a perfect being.
Or a perfect life.
Perfection will be rejected.
We shall continue to pass time till we cease to exist.
Till our brain ceases to function.
As soon as that happens
We become perfect.
Exactly the same time that we are rejected.
Life;
Liberty;
and the pursuit of Happyness.

I wish you all an ignorant future.
Live.

No man's land

Hospital nearby.
Dead.
Walking through a slum area.
A vibrant area having its blend of struggles, laughter, and naked emotions.

Fresh bread baked at eleven pm.
Barber with grumpy clients.

Silence.
Noise.


Long straight lighted pavement.
A guy walking down the middle.

Gazing in an unassuming way.
Looking at life.
Seeing through two tin sheets at the world beyond.
Turns around to go back to the dead peace.

Selfish

There is a spark within us;
Wishing to ignite.
But very necessarily, the oxygen is missing for most people.

Most of my writing is based on existence v/s creation.
I think I think too much.
And I have said that before.

I want to be alone.
I dont want to be lonely.

I want to be focussed.
I dont want to think.

I want to act.
I want to procrastinate.

I want to learn.
I want to sleep.

I want to Roark.
I want to dream.
I want to fight everyday.
I want to chill everyday.

I want automation.
I want bliss.

I want to remember each moment.
I want to live each day.
I want to forget and move ahead.

I want to die.
As Tir.

Geometry

Sometimes, it really feels that ignorance is complete bliss.
It was an alien concept a year ago;
But this bliss, I believe; is only good in the short run.

After a while, it gets to you.
You don't want to be ignorant.
You want to care, create, risk, build an ego.

It might hit you now,
Or when you are about to die.

Happy people are those who create this ego; and are satisfied.
Or those who are completely ignorant and concentrate on the present.

It is crazy how visionaries are sadder than ignorant people.
How they are always lost, when compared with the ignorant kind.
But;
These weird buggers somehow enjoy the question marks before them.

So;
Although they appear sad.
And they are sad.
They enjoy the pursuit.

John Mayer said it nicely in his song.
Something's missing; And I don't know what it is!

It's a weird circle whose circumference blends into another.

Iron Man

I still cant figure out why I loved Iron Man so much.

Let's see -
An amazing genius
Captured by terrorists
Creates an iron creature powered by something radioactive.
Stops his defense equipment production
And creates something to safeguard people, and destroy the baddies

I believe it was the nasha of working.
The intelligence
The Galt-ness
The drive
The energy
Perspiration
Dream
Ability
Getting lost

Ego
Progress

Rearden Steel

Galt's Gulch


Really reminded me of this

Motive

Stand up and fight.
But don't forget to smile.
Stare away.
But look at nothing.

Flirt.
But only with your 'destiny'.

Push yourself.
Till the pain turns to ecstasy.
Till the new becomes old.
Till nostalgia sets in.

Till you see the world in a glimpse.

Till you can see with your eyes shut.
Till you can live beyond consciousness.


Never Rest.

Explore

Fly away to unconsciousness. . .
Gain complete control.
Find yourself when all is lost.

Create lost thoughts.
Impress - such that the creation becomes ordinary.

Greatness is a perspective.
Silence critics by making them shout out loud.

Egoism is a virtue.
Let flow its complete potential.
Silence.
Patience.
Violence.

It Starts ?

So I started off at office - n 2 months over now. Pretty cool. Life is shaping.
Hopefully I get to fly.
Learning a lot - Is this what I want to learn though?
Have an ever growing interest in Finance - the Bond Mkt. n Interest rates.
Its a whole diff world out there.
Getting really anxious - restless - don't know how to push myself
Do I want to push myself?

Want to focus
The end is visible
But is that picture an illusion?
Are the means a farce?
If the end turns out to be irrelevant will I laugh at myself?

And if the end is achieved will I really be happy?
What if I love the end & also love the means?
Which one will be more important?

I believe you have to decide right now.
You say you want to get off the block fast;
But what if the foundation determines future speed?
What if you spend all your time on the foundation?
Or what if the A.C. is better than the natural cold up there?
Do you really want to ride a Goliath in the future?
Or would you much rather enjoy this stupid yacht?

Fly away baby ! Fly Away !
No chains! No holds barred!